Right now my state of mind is like why keep trying to move forward. When everything in the world keeps pushing me back. As soon as I take a step forward I get knocked back ten steps. The only thing keeping me going right now is my two wonderful kids that need their mother to be strong and make it through it all. Just so they can see the world in a different light then what it is now. To have a great life that they can look back on a say my mother did a damn good job at making the world look better.
But it is hard to start over from the bottom and only get a quarter of the way up and have to start over again.